Sakura Luv Syaoran

School???

2011-05-11T10:09:00.003+08:00

Gonna start sch again!!!
After not studying for 2 years will i still be motivated to study??? Urh!!!
I hav totally no idea wat to expect except writing of super long essays
Which is gonna be super boring n crazy...
I prefer MCQ!!!
Why muz there be super long essays???
Freak it!!!

I wish i can study full time instead of part time...
Then i got more time to rest!!! Or rather play~ Hahaha...
But it's gonna be really challenging from now on!!!
It's gonna be a new experience for me now!!!
Bring it on!!!

L.O.V.E

2011-04-12T09:16:00.003+08:00

WE R BACK TGT~
Though not many ppl are gonna be happy bout tat...
But if they were real friends, they shouldnt be bothered...
Coz tis is my life...
Friends is to be there to warn scold and most importantly, be there when everything fails...
These are then real friends...

Hope all these hardship that we hav gone through are gonna be worth it...
Lets Jia You~!!!

Perth

2011-04-02T03:31:00.003+08:00

Guess wat???

I'm writing my blog in Perth!!!

Today is my last day staying at Ger's place aka on Ger's bed...

Really different kind of vacation i would say...

It's not a bad thing... It really turn out fun in the weirdest places...

From all the vacations i hav went, tis i muz say, i really felt i didnt left home at all...

It's like i grown up here except for certain parts where i got into culture shock!!!

It will be a nice place to be when i get old...

The work here is slow pace, everything is so relax, the view is beautiful...

I really wonder if i will ever forget tat beautiful sunset...

I will miss e 3 kittens... Especially the black one...

Goodbye Perth~

Good day mate...

Perth

2011-03-24T10:12:00.002+08:00

Gonna fly off in a day to meet hubby~ Cant wait!!!
I hav no idea wat we are gonna do...
But i know im having a 7 part surprise waiting for me!!!

Part 1 is far east movement video~
Part 2 was the sms from him~ >x<
Part 3 arriving friday on Fri... Hint: I think Ger is flying back from Perth!!!
Part 4 when I'm coming to perth..
Part 5 in perth.. Hint: I think it's the rabbit!!!
Part 6 when I go back singapore..
Part 7 is still a little tough she says...

I really dono some of the parts yet!!! So excited!!!

Passion

2011-03-14T13:33:00.002+08:00

It's been 1 month since u last sms me...
I cant be hiding from u forever...

We talk like nothing even happen...
It really feels nice...
I know i really miss u...
But im still scared...
I really wanted to delete from my life,
But i really cant...
I really tried...
I juz cant forget u...

I cried when i saw ur msg
You said Coz I Love You...
Can i really trust ur words???
Will u hurt me again???
Or were u drunk again tat's y u said all thoses...

I dono how to start over again...
My jealousy is too strong...
My 6th sense is crazy...
And i dont see any actions from you...
I should juz not put any hopes on you...

If you really want me, plz show it to me then...
If not stop haunting me...

Dilema

2011-02-26T09:35:00.002+08:00

I dono how you think...
I dono wat you know...
I really give up...
I dont think i can live in fear..
I dont wana keep guessing
I dont wana know
I don wana know how you feel
Im juz so sick n tired
I told you aready
I dont take no nonsense

You wana talk to those girls go ahead
You wana say u r still single go ahead
You wana ask them out go ahead
But dont come running back to me when these girls stop talking to you
Im not a girl for u to juz find like a spare tire
I hav feelings
I hav hopes

I think i aready stop loving you
So you dont need to go find Ger to go n tell her things
Yes my heart weaken when i see the msges...
But my heart gets hard when i see those msg u send to other girls..
You say u r changing??? Well.. Let me tell you, you cant change..
Not now, not forever...
You wana talk??? You nv talk...
You can nv say wat u really wana say to me...
Becoz i always end up saying things, asking questions..
And i give up...
U cant open out to me, we cant talk through it, we can nv settle it..
So i did wat was the easiest way out for us...
I left you...

All i ever ask was tat you love me...
Tat i am your only girl...
So shouldnt all ur attention be on me???
If you cant dont hold me...

Yes, i once told you i will wait for you...
But tat was becoz i tot tat you still love me, and u needed some time to think carefully..
But in e process of thinking, you are also thinking bout other girls???
My time was wasted waiting for you to think bout other girls..

Time will heal, and in future i will regret not hearing ur words..
But if in e process of tis we find a better one???
Wouldnt tat be better???

???Love???

2011-02-20T15:09:00.002+08:00

Wat is Love???
How to you know you are being Love???
You cant see Love...
Can we feel Love???
If we can,
Why cant i feel it??
I wana believe...
Small things u did...
It touch my heart...
But why does it not really show it to me???

Could it be Love???
Could jealousy be Love???
Could wanting you be Love???
Could having all of you to me be Love???
Could wanting you to spent time with me be Love????
Could wanting you to give me more attention be Love???

Or could it be my heart wanting more then this???
Or am i too used to my old Love???
Maybe i was being pampered to much last time...
That i expect you to fill me up the same way???
Maybe im juz a Princess wanting a Prince to come and swip me off~
But where is he then???

Price Tag

2011-02-20T15:01:00.000+08:00

Why is everybody so serious!
Acting so damn mysterious
You got your shades on your eyes
And your heels so high
That you can't even have a good time.

Everybody look to their left (yeah)
Everybody look to their right (ha)
Can you feel that (yeah)
We're paying with love tonight

It's not about the money, money, money
We don't need your money, money, money
We just wanna make the world dance,
Forget about the Price Tag

Ain't about the (uh) Cha-Ching Cha-Ching.
Aint about the (yeah) Ba-Bling Ba-Bling
Wanna make the world dance,
Forget about the Price Tag.

Trust

2011-02-19T12:56:00.002+08:00

Can I really trust ur words now???
Will they turn to nothing again???
Hav you really think properly???
Or will you think back again???
Yes it's difficult, yes it's hard...
But who says love is gonna be easy???

I hav my doubts...
You hurt me once, the scar is there..
Will it heal?? It might...
But it all depends on ur actions...
If you can show, it cant heal,
then i cant love...

Dumb dumb dumb

2011-01-25T17:56:00.002+08:00

I dono why...
Why my heart is forever so dumb...
To always love the wrong ones...
When will i find the right one out of all e wrong???

But for some one to love me i muz 1st love myself...
So i muz stop all my nonsense...
All these drinking and smoking.... I muz stop...
I should start taking care of myself to find better man...
Coz my right man is still waiting for me out there...

P.S. (R)

You

2010-12-15T10:18:00.003+08:00

You tell me to think... Think for wat shit???
Shouldnt you be the one tat's suppose to be thinking??
Coz in the 1st place u was the one tat started all these shit...
U once promised me... It was broken... And u r promising me again
Dont promise me things u can nv do...
Dont give me the hope when u r not able to..
U are trying to help me glue back the pieces, but will u break it again all over again???
I can forgive, but i nv forget...
When ever u bring me 2 steps forward, i will take a step back...
Becoz i can nv know wat u r thinking, i can nv know wat will e future be...
I'm afraid to think, afraid to dream, afraid to know...
You once brought me to the peak yet u are also the one who pushed me off it, making me fall all the way down alone..

When will i see the end begin??
I wan it to go all back again...
I want to love u like before...
But i'm afraid...
I'm afraid it will become nothing in the end..

Waiting outside the lines

2010-12-06T14:48:00.003+08:00

You’ll never enjoy your life,
living inside the box
You’re so afraid of taking chances,
how you gonna reach the top?

Rules and regulations,
force you to play it safe
Get rid of all the hesitation,
it’s time for you to seize the day

Instead of just sitting around
and looking down on tomorrow
You gotta let your feet off the ground,
the time is now

I’m waiting, waiting, just waiting,
I’m waiting, waiting outside the lines
Waiting outside the lines
Waiting outside the lines

Try to have no regrets
even if it’s just tonight
How you gonna walk ahead
if you keep living behind

Stuck in my same position,
you deserve so much more
There’s a whole world around us,
just waiting to be explored

Instead of just sitting around
and looking down on tomorrow
You gotta let your feet off the ground,
the time is now, just let it go

The world will force you to smile
I’m here to help you notice the rainbow
Cause I know,
What’s in you is out there

I’m waiting, waiting, just waiting,
I’m waiting, waiting outside the lines
Waiting outside the lines
Waiting outside the lines

http://www.elyricsworld.com/waiting_outside_the_lines_lyrics_greyson_chance.html
I’m trying to be patient (I’m trying to be patient)
the first step is the hardest (the hardest)
I know you can make it,
go ahead and take it

I’m Waiting, waiting, just waiting I’m waiting
I’m waiting, waiting, just waiting
I’m waiting, waiting outside the lines
Waiting outside the lines
Waiting outside the lines

You’ll never enjoy your life
Living inside the box
You’re so afraid of taking chances,
How you gonna reach the top?

Tis is dedicated to you~

Annual Leave D5!!!

2010-12-06T10:58:00.003+08:00

Day 5 of Leave: Went to celebrate for Lee Jin B Day!!! Happy 22nd B Day!!! After tat went for drinks at timbre~ And last but not the least... Club at PH!!! Whoots!!! Party Pe Op Le~

Annual Leave D4!!!

2010-12-06T10:18:00.003+08:00

Day 4 of leave: Went to hav a makeover for my hair!!! Reborn, colour, treatment!!! Whoots!!! Coloured green and ash brown... Cool~ Though i dont really see much diff from my natural hair... Hahaha!!! Shall try more obvious colour next time~ After tat went to eat crabs!!! Whoots whoots whoots!!! Burb~

Annual Leave D3!!!

2010-11-30T09:13:00.004+08:00

3rd Day of Leave: Nua-ing till 3pm~ Whoots~ Then went out with Boney and Auntie for Wii game!!! Played supermario and SCREAM, SHOUTED and LAUGHED like nobody's business... Till the next door had to bang onto our room to tell us to tone down... HAHAHA!!!
But... WATEVER~ We still SCREAM ON~ HAHAHA!!!

Annual Leave D2!!!

2010-11-29T09:38:00.004+08:00

2nd Day of Leave: After a hard nite of exercise wat better to do then to slp all e way till 5pm!!! After tat went for medi pedi-cure and jap food with daughter~!!! I love the colour!!! Really living the life!!! Hahaha~

Annual Leave D1!!!

2010-11-29T09:17:00.002+08:00

1st day of leave: Nua on my bed for the whole day!!! Great start for the leave!!! Hahaha... Which after tat went for nite exercise till 6am... Damn!!! It's great... Tis is the life i wanted~

Dont let me fall...

2010-11-23T10:43:00.002+08:00

Well, it was jus a dream, juz a moment ago..
I was up so high, lookin down at the sky..
Dont let me fall..
I was shooting for stars, on a Saturday nite..
They say what goes up muz come down, dont let me fall..

No regrets

2010-11-23T10:41:00.002+08:00

I did wat ever i could for you...
It's not up to me anymore...
I tried to help to solve all the probs but u wont let me try...
So i wont live in regret...
I know i did the best i could for us...
I love you...
I hope 1 day u will wake up from urself...
I shall wait...

I live on love

2010-11-17T16:58:00.002+08:00

Everybody wants something, just a little more
We're making a living, and what we're living for
A rich man or a poor man, a pawn or a king
You can live on the street, you can rule the whole world
But it don't mean one damn thing

What do you got, if you aint got love?
Whatever you got, it just aint enough
You walk in the road, but you're going nowhere
You're tryin' to find your way home, but there's no one there
Who do you hold, in the dark of night?
You wanna give up, but it's worth the fight
You have all the things, that you've been dreaming of

If you ain't got someone, you're afraid to lose
Everybody needs just one, someone... to tell them the truth
Maybe I'm a dreamer, but I still believe
I believe in hope, I believe the change can get us up off our knees

If you ain't got love, it's all just keeping score
If you ain't got love, what the hell we doing it for

I don't wanna have to talk about it,
How many songs you gotta sing about it?
How long you gonna live without it?
Why does someone somewhere have to doubt it?
Someday we'll figure it out

If you ain't got love, what the hell we doing it for
I ain't got, if you ain't got love
What do you got if you ain't got love?
I can't survive on without ur love...
Plz come back to me.
I live for you.
I'll hav to wait till u come back to love me.
I love you...

Just a dream

2010-11-16T08:42:00.002+08:00

I was thinkin about him, thinkin about me.
Thinkin about us, what we gonna be?
Open my eyes, yeah; it was only just a dream.
So I travel back, down that road.
Who he come back? No one knows.
I realize, yeah, it was only just a dream
And now you ain't around, baby I can't think.
Cuz I can still feel it in the air.
See his pretty face run my fingers through his hair.
My lover, my life. My boy boy, my husband
He left me, I'm tied.
Cuz I knew that it just ain't right.
And I just hope he notice he's the only one I yearn for.
Oh I miss him when will I learn?
Hey, he was so easy to love. But wait, I guess that love wasn't enough.
I'm goin through it every time that I'm alone.
And now i'm missin, wishin he'd pick up the phone.
If you ever loved somebody put your hands up.
And now they're gone and you wish you could give them everything.

I love you Raymond Lee...

Let's decide

2010-11-10T13:06:00.002+08:00

Out of sight, out of mind
Out of time to decide
Do we run? Should I hide
For the rest of my life

Can we fly? Do we stay?
We could lose we could fail
And the more minutes take
To make planer, or mistakes

30 minutes, the blink of the night
30 minutes to alter our lifes
30 minutes to make up my mind
30 minutes to finally decide
30 minutes to whisper your name
30 minutes to shelter the blame
30 minutes of bliss, 30 lies
30 minutes to finally decide

Can we fly do I stay
We could lose, we could fail
Either way, options change
chances fail, Trains derail.

To decide, to decide to decide to decide
I decide to stay by with you,
I promise to be true to you in good times and in bad, in sickness and in health.
I will love and honor you all the days of my life."
In poverty or in wealth, 'til death do us part."

Let's fight together

2010-11-10T10:31:00.002+08:00

The only mistake you make was trying to settle tis prob alone and giving up on us... Dont say srry to me... Let's solve tis prob tgt... I know it is going to be hard... I know it wont be easy for us... But at least we are tgt solving this prob...
Plz stop keeping all the probs u are facing by urself can??? I am also ur gf... If u really love me u wont be giving up on us this easily... There is always a solution to a prob... It's how we are able to solve it... I dont mind being the bad person... I dont mind being hated... As long as i hav you... Im not goin to marry them, i'm gonna marry u... I believe tat i am able to slowly change their mind bout me... If i had done it once, i can also do it again...
Please dont think tat by leaving me it will solve all the probs... U r juz running away from it... I juz wish we can face these probs tgt... I really wish i can run to u and hug u, coz i know u r suffering...

All i need to know is tat u love me, and tat's all tat matters to me...
So plz dont leave me...

I Need You To Understand

2010-11-09T18:21:00.003+08:00

I know its not your fault, but I’m a locked door
Anytime I’m a mess by someone before
And I wish that I, I could find a key
To unlock all the things that you want us to be
Let me open up and start again,
But there’s a safe around my heart
I don’t know how to let you in,
And that’s what keeps us apart
And that’s why I need time.
I said I need you,
I need you to understand, you, you, you

Call up the locksmith,
Tell him we need him quick
We’ve got a million keys,
None of them seem to fit
While your on the phone,
Call up the clocksmith,
Cuz I could use some time,
Even the slightest bit

Let me open up and start again,
And break this safe around my heart
I don’t know how to let you in,
And that’s what keeps us apart
And that’s why I need time
I said I need you
I need you to understand

I’m thinking now’s the time,
Maybe its time to go, if I gave you my heart, be gentle,
I’m tired of laying low, lets give the world a show..

A day without you

2010-11-08T12:18:00.002+08:00

Can you feel me
When I think about you
With every breath I take
Every minute
No matter what I do
My world is an empty place

Like I've been wonderin the desert
For a thousand days
Don't know if it's a mirage
But I always see your face, baby

The stars are burning
I hear your voice in my mind ( it's in my mind )
Can't you hear me calling
My heart is yearning
Like the ocean that's running dry
Catch me I'm falling

It's like the ground is crumbling underneath my feet
Won't you save me
There's gonna be a monsoon
When you get back to me

So let this drought come to an end
And may this desert flower again
I'm so glad you found me
Stick around me
baby,baby,baby,whoaa
It's a world
No wonder
With you in my life
So Hurry baby, Don't waste no more time
And I need you here
I can't explain
But a day without you
Is like a year without rain

I'm missing you so much
Can't help it, I'm in love
A day without you is like a year without rain
I need you by my side
Don't know how I'll survive
A day without you is like a year without rain

Tired, tired of everything

2010-11-07T19:16:00.003+08:00

I'm tired of everything...
I wana give it all up...
I stop hoping in watever u ever said...
I'm always left alone...
Im an attention seeker...
Im a selfish person...
Im stubborn...
I dont wana ever feel tis way...
It sucks... It really really sucks...
I wana say but i don wana tell you... There is no point...
Time will heal... Scars will be there...
I'll juz zip it up, hold it down and close all the doors...

Treat me like im your only girl

2010-10-27T13:58:00.002+08:00

I want you to love me, like I'm a hot girl
Keep thinkin' of me, doin' what you like
So boy forget about the world cuz it's gon' be me and you tonight
I wanna make your bed for ya, then imma make you swallow your pride

Want you to make me feel like I'm the only girl in the world
Like I'm the only one that you'll ever love
Like I'm the only one who knows your heart
Only girl in the world...
Like I'm the only one that's in command
Cuz I'm the only one who understands how to make you feel like a man
Want you to make me feel like I'm the only girl in the world

Want you to take me like a thief in the night
Hold me like a pillow, make me feel right
Baby I'll tell you all my secrets that I'm keepin', you can come inside
And when you enter, you ain't leavin', be my prisoner for the night

Take me for a ride
Oh baby, take me high
Let me make you first
Oh make it last all night

Only girl in the world...
Girl in the world...

One in a Billion

2010-10-25T22:22:00.004+08:00

I can be in love
But I just don't know
Baby one thing is for certain
Whatever you do it's working
All the guys don't matter
In your presence can't do what you do
There's a billion guys around but I don't see no one but you

Boy you're so one in a billion
You are
Baby you're the best I ever had
And I'm certain that
There ain't nothing better
No there ain't nothing better than this

Ooh all that I can think about is what this thing could be
A future baby
Baby you're one of a kind
That means that you're the only one for me
Only one for me

Misery

2010-10-24T22:00:00.001+08:00

So scared of breaking it that you won't let it bend
And I wrote two hundred letters I will never send
Sometimes these cuts are so much deeper then they seem
You'd rather cover up, I'd rather let them be

So let me be, and I'll set you free
I am in misery
There ain't nobody who can comfort me, oh yeah
Why won't you answer me?
The silence is slowly killing me, oh yeah

Girl you really got me bad
You really got me bad
Now I'm gonna get you back
I'm gonna get you back

Your salty skin and how it mixes in with mine
The way it feels to be completely intertwined
Not that I didn't care, it's that I didn't know
It's not what I didn't feel, it's what I didn't show

So let me be, and I'll set you free

Give me a reason to love you

2010-10-14T20:08:00.002+08:00

I'm so tired of playing,
Playing with this bow and arrow.
Gonna give my heart away,
Leave it to the other girls to play.
For I've been a temptress too long

Just. .

Give me a reason to love you,
Give me a reason to be a woman.
I just wanna be a woman.

From this time, unchained,
We're all looking at a different picture
Thru this new frame of mind
A thousand flowers could bloom,
Move over and give us some room.

Give me a reason to love you,
Give me a reason to be a woman.
I just wanna be a woman.

So don't you stop being a man,
Just take a little look from our side when you can.
Sow a little tenderness
No matter if you cry.

Give me a reason to love you,
Give me a reason to be a woman.
It's all I wanna be, is all woman.

For this is the beginning of forever and ever...

Its time to move over...

Dreamz

2010-10-12T16:32:00.002+08:00

I had a dream...
Tis dream help me solved all my probs tat I hav...
I wished tat it can also be applied in the real world...
But I really felt better after feeling of some sort of solving my probs...
Close ur eyes and be at peace with urself...
I wana be the smiley girl I used to be...
Coz I love to smile, I love to be happy...
I shall ignore and be blind...
Nothing seen... Nothing known...
The less I know the happier I'll be...
Smile girl~
Pretend the world I wan it to be...

J is a evil thing

2010-10-11T11:14:00.001+08:00

Sometimes we fight
Sometimes I cry
Why don't I
Just tell him goodbye
Sometimes I should
But sometimes I don't
Build up the strength to
Say that it's wrong
Sometimes I hate
Sometimes I love
Sometimes I hurt
Sometimes I don't
Sometimes I wait
For him to change
But it's okay
I've disguised the pain
And I don't ever wanna leave him alone
They say i'm brainwashed but i'm in love
With this man
Yeah

Sometimes I keep my cool
Sometimes I let him know
Sometimes I even pack my bags to walk out the door
Sometimes I feel safe
Sometimes I really don't
Sometimes I promise that i'm ready to let him go
But I don't ever wanna leave him alone
They say i'm brainwashed but i'm in love
With this man

Hoping he's changing
But i'm scared he's not
Can't see a way to leave
Help me open my eyes

Keep telling myself that it's not worth it
I already know I don't deserve it
But if it's from you I don't mind hurting
This is my perfect nightmare
So when will I wake up and scream
No way (x7)

This is my perfect nightmare
Perfect nightmare
Perfect nightmare

Running

2010-10-09T20:26:00.002+08:00

I always think tat running was e ans to my prob...
Running always seem so easy...
Hiding was even easier...
But how long can we ever run or hide???
In the end either we kill or ourselfs or the prob will always be there...
Y not talk bout it and try and solve it???
Even maybe it does not become the way u really wanted it to be solved, at least it's solved...
I've learnt Tat juz facing it actually shortens the pain we go through running...
Even though e ans was not wat I would get from running but at least u know u did something bout it...
No point in running and forever the prob is not solved...
Sometimes I wish I wasn't tis weak...

Wat guys should say

2010-10-06T16:08:00.003+08:00

'Cause you're amazing
Just the way you are
And when you smile
The whole world stops and stares for awhile
'Cause girl, you're amazing
Just the way you are
Her lips, her lips, I could kiss them all day if she'd let me
Her laugh her laugh, she hates but I think it's so sexy
She's so beautiful
And I tell her everyday
Oh, you know, you know, you know I'd never ask you to change
If perfect's what you're searching for, then just stay the same
So don't even bother asking if you look okay
You know I'll say
When I see your face
There's not a thing that I would change...

If only guys would only be thinking of these~
'Cause you're amazing
Just the way you are

I love you

2010-10-05T09:08:00.002+08:00

I wonder how much I can love u...
How long I will love u...
Will u love me back as much as I love u???
Coz I feel so tired having tis feeling...
How do we really know we will be tgt till e end???
How long will the end then reach???
They say when u love some one u dont expect the person to return u the same way...
Does tis mean tat I don't love u enough???
But then again how do we really know how much love r we really putting in???
I only know tat I really love u...
But love is blind...

Beaches

2010-09-30T18:56:00.002+08:00

I've been to Redang...
And now i'm back from Tioman...
2 beaches i've been!!!
Next beach to go~
Langkawi!!!
Whoots!!! Cant wait!!!
Planning in progress!!!

Helloooo~

2010-09-28T09:57:00.002+08:00

Mother: Later go and vacuum floor k???
Me: Again??? Today is my off day... I wana rest today...
Mother: Anyway you got nothing to do... If not u're gonna play the computer all day...
Me: I doing something ok??? I'm resting... Resting is doing something...

:p

Keeping Faith

2010-09-04T18:04:00.003+08:00

Synopsis:

Somewhere between belief and doubt lies faith. For the second time in her marriage, Mariah White catches her husband with another woman and Faith, their seven year old daughter, witnesses every painful minute. In the aftermath of a sudden divorce, Mariah struggles with depression and Faith seeks solace in a new friend… a friend who may or may not be imaginary.

Faith talks to her "Guard"constantly; begins to recite passages from the Bible— a book she's never read. Fearful for her daughter's sanity, Mariah sends her to several psychiatrists. Yet when Faith develops stigmata and begins to perform miraculous healings, Mariah wonders if her daughter-- a girl with no religious background-- might indeed be seeing God. As word spreads and controversy heightens, Mariah and Faith are besieged by believers and disbelievers alike, caught in a media circus that threatens what little stability they have left.

What are you willing to believe? Is Faith a prophet or a troubled little girl? Is Mariah a good mother facing an impossible crisis— or a charlatan using her daughter to reclaim the attention her unfaithful husband withheld? As the story builds to a climactic battle for custody, Mariah must discover that spirit is not necessarily something that comes from religion, but from inside oneself.

Fascinating, thoughtful, and suspenseful, Keeping Faith explores a family plagued by the media, the medical profession, and organized religion in a world where everyone has an opinion but no one knows the truth. At her controversial and compelling best, Jodi Picoult masterfully explores the moment when boundaries break down, when illusions become reality, and when the only step left to take is a leap of faith.

P.S. Finally read finish this book... It really makes me think... Think bout love, family, faith... Only during the hardship tgt that u can really then see who is the one who truely stands beside u... And during this time tat u should treasure these ppl...

Can you see???

2010-09-01T23:00:00.002+08:00

You can see that I'm smiling???
See that I'm laughing...
See that I act as if nothings wrong???
But inside i'm hurt...
Can you see that???

Dont accuse of people when u haven even ask them why...
Certain things in life cannot be explain...
If they can be explain, it would not hav happen in the 1st place...
Coz it would not hav been done...

What i need now is ur support...
I know wat i hav done wrong...
I dont need more scoldings...
Wat i need is u to stand there and say
'Everything is goin to be all right'
Though i will tell u...
'Damn u everything is gonna be all right...'
'You are not in my shoe'
P.S. *Then again i'm not tat bad...*

I may look happy...
I may look unaffected...
If you are that great, you would hav known tat it's not me...
But who doesnt wear a mask???
Every one does... Including you..
F*** My Life...
_|_ _|_
I wish i can slp and never ever need to wake up again...

Beautiful Hangover

2010-08-26T17:41:00.002+08:00

君はMY BEAUTIFUL HANGOVER

君はMY BEAUTIFUL HANGOVER
HANGOVER YEAH

輝くヘッドライト眠らない街へ　ARE YOU READY?
ここからが勝負　アセらずに　限界まで全開で行こう！

流れるRADIO　縮める距離を　OH OH OH
行き先はまだ　言えないよ
HONEY CLOSE YOUR EYES

WE’RE GONNA GET DOWN DOWN DOWN!
GIMME LOVE LOVE LOVE!　探し求めてた　LADY
誰にも止められないMAKING LOVE　気が済むまでGO!

君はMY BEAUTIFUL HANGOVER
HANGOVER YEAH
君はMY BEAUTIFUL HANGOVER　HANGOVER

IT’S ME　G.D (I KNOW YOU LOVE ME)

MA-MA-MA-MA-MA MY BEAUTIFUL GIRL
1,2,3 TO THE 4-SHO ONE LIKE YOU
THERE AIN’T NOBODY CAN DO THEM THINGS YOU DO
SO TRUE
I’M SO EXCITED DELIGHTED
I WON’T DENY IT NOR FIGHT IT
BABY YOU GOT WHAT I NEED
GOT ME JUMPIN’ JUMPIN’ OFF MY FEET

BABY THERE’S NO PLAYIN’ DELAYIN’
ALWAYS GOT ME FEELIN’ THAT HEALIN’
EVERYDAY I’M SMILIN’ AND WILDIN’
WHEN I THINK ABOUT YOU
THINK ABOUT YOU
GOT ME FLYIN’ SO HIGH ‘N
AND I WON’T STOP BRINGIN’ AND BRINGIN’ THAT (BANG!)

B.I.G (BANG!) T.O.P (BANG!)
BABY THAT’S HOW IT BE

WE’RE GONNA GET DOWN DOWN DOWN!
GIMME LOVE LOVE LOVE!　探し求めてた　LADY
誰にも止められないMAKING LOVE 炎のよに熱い

君はMY BEAUTIFUL HANGOVER
HANGOVER YEAH
君はMY BEAUTIFUL HANGOVER　HANGOVER

YOU GOT MY HEART　ラブゲーム
MAKE ME CRAZY BABY
KISS MY LIPS　狂わせ　360°
もうなるように　なるしかない

WE’RE GONNA GET DOWN DOWN DOWN!
GIMME LOVE LOVE LOVE!　探し求めてた　LADY
誰にも止められないMAKING LOVE　気が済むまでGO!

君はMY BEAUTIFUL HANGOVER
HANGOVER YEAH
君はMY BEAUTIFUL HANGOVER　HANGOVER

YEAH BABE LET’S GO!

WE’LL LET YOU WAKE UP IN LOVE
ANYTIME I CAN’T GET ENOUGH
BUT THAT KINDNESS SWEETNESS
I DON’T WANT IT EVER TO END

SO AMAZING MORE THAN ABOVE
BABY WHEN YOU TAKE IT SHOW LOVE
YOU DEFINE US AND (NUDGE) US

WANNA GIVE YOU ALL MY BABY

oh oh oh~
oh oh oh oh~

BEAUTFUL BEAUTIFUL BEAUTIFUL

oh oh oh~
oh oh oh oh~

BEAUTIFUL MY BABY

For You

2010-08-24T23:33:00.002+08:00

Yes...
Tis is a post for you You YOU!!!
You know who u r...
Dont be sad k~
You know u always make me happy...
Juz of becoz 1 small little tini wini post then u also sad???
GROW UP BOY!!!
:p

You might not know who i miss...
You might not know who i want...
You might not know what i'm thinking...
But you should know that you love me...

24 Aug. Suay Day

2010-08-24T18:56:00.002+08:00

Today is offically the most most most suay day i can ever know!!!

I worked pm shift the previous day...
Manage to only slp at 1am...
Woke up @ 3am...
Woken up again @ 5am...
Time to work am...
Ate breakfast alone...
Went to work...
Was happy tat i get to work in nursery...
But then saw wat was there... Gone...
Work like shit, kena like shit...
Was at 1st happy tat no more ISO talk...
Sis say... Erica tml u work PM shift k???
Dammit... Wana say no but then i dont wana let my staff down...
Hav to start studying all the ISO stuff...
Stayed back to listen more...
But i'm not absorbing anything in... DAMN...
Went back at 6pm...
Office ppl also knocking off...
Bus super damn full...
Jam on the highway...
Hp went out off batt...
Went home mum ask me thousands of questions...
Alone at home...

Can someone juz kill me and end my misery...
No 1 can make me happy...

Tea

2010-08-24T00:00:00.002+08:00

I muz promise myself tis...
NEVER EVER DRINK TEA AFTER 6pm...
Coz i freaking cant slp by 12MN when i am suppose to be working AM shift!!!
I wonder, i ponder, i stress...
BUT I FREAKING CANT GET TO SLP!!!
DAMMIT!!!
And i feel like i'm having papitations...
Tea is scary~
EEK!!!

Dance Dance Dance

2010-08-22T14:42:00.002+08:00

Some ppl dance to remember...
Some ppl dance to forget...
Me??? I dance to remember then, and forget it once i step out...
That's why dancing can be so addictive for me...
The feeling to remember then but having to forget it after...
The time is so sweet yet so short...
Make me crave for more~
When can i go back into your arms???

So if you dare you can try me but you will not get me at the end...

Is Love Calculable?

2010-08-20T14:39:00.002+08:00

Is Love calculable?

How do you really know if some one really loves you?
By seeing how much time he spends on you?
By seeing how much care he showers you with?
Or the items he buys for you?

Isn't love something that comes from the heart?
But if it really comes from the heart, and you dont feel it, was it really truly from the heart then?
Or is the heart being too cold to feel it?

Gals are attention seekers where else guys are attention givers.
The lesser the guys give the attention the more the gal wants to get his attention.
But after awhile, wont this tire the gal out and she'll gives up wanting his attention?
By then would the love have started to fade or has she just given up hope on attention seeking?

Love is not about give and take.
Love is about giving.
Giving all you have got.
Giving all you have and not expecting anything in return.
(Maybe just wanting the person's love back)

If you start calulating how much love you are giving and how much love he should give back to you, wouldn't you guys must as well just be friends?

Love isnt about how much he should do this or he should do that.
Love is how much you could do this or you could do that.
Give your 100% out but do not expect 100% back.

That is how you can really truly love some one.
Love is such a tortures feeling.

BIG BIG HEADPHONE!!!

2010-08-17T20:41:00.002+08:00

LOVE MY BIG BIG HEADPHONES!!!
JUZ LIKE MY BLOG PHOTO!!!

Feelin' Itchin'

2010-08-17T17:22:00.002+08:00

How how how!!! My feel, itch, need to club is comin back again!!! Only 1 wk of no club only!!! How can tis be!!! I muz control!!!
1 month~ 1 month only!!!
I muz stop hearing music... Stop seeing youtube videos!!! NOOO!!! How to survive!!!

Can some 1 help me scratch it???

Ego

2010-08-13T05:50:00.002+08:00

They say guys hav high egos...
I think gals too hav high egos...
And the egos are super super damn high!!!

I know for 1 thing...
My ego is damn high...
Taught by my lessy~ Muacks~

But of coz after torturing myself,
pulling myself down back to the ground,
will i be able to bring down my ego...

Having high egos is nv a good thing...
You juz think tat u r juz too damn good...
Which then again isnt such a bad thing after all!!!

DAMMIT!!! Ego struck again~

???

2010-08-11T18:46:00.002+08:00

The Mind
The Body
The Action
The Talking
The Thinking
The Heart
The Soul

All of them does things differently
When we listen to 1, we contradict the other
When will they act as 1???

How could the wolf win the vampire

2010-08-10T09:34:00.003+08:00

NOOO!!!
How could the wolf win the vampire!!!
No no no!!
Edward should win!!!
KAYU!!!

Independence

2010-08-05T13:21:00.002+08:00

A friend told me...
How you know you really love the person???

The best way you wana find out???

When you leave the person...
It is only when u know u cannot live without this person...
That everyday you keep thinking bout this person...
You think if the person is well...
You think if the person is thinking bout u???
You think if is the person able to survive without you???

It all comes down to the point when you found out tat...
I really cannot live without him...
He is my source of living...
My every breath worth breathing...
My only reason for me to survive in this world...
He is the only reason tat I am still wanting to live in this world...

That is when you know you really love tis person...
And without this person, your life becomes meaningless...

If you ever feel this way for the person you love,
please treasure it...

For this feeling will 1 day grow...
Once it turns into independence the love might be lost...

Running Forever

2010-08-04T09:01:00.002+08:00

Running = Tired
Forever Running = Forever Tired

But how long can 1 last if we keep running????
I cant be forever running...
So when will i ever stop running???

I really should stop running... STAT!!!

Messed Up

2010-08-03T10:26:00.002+08:00

I'm totally in a mess right now...
Confused, rethinking, why~
Why do i not want to take the 1st step???
Why am i resisting it???
What am i really afraid off???
Is tis really not wat i want???
I hate to rethink again and again and again...
Why cant i be left alone???
But if i do u'll be sad again...
But if i dont i'll be confused...
So should i be the selfish 1 which i had aready been???

A New Me

2010-08-02T18:41:00.002+08:00

Time to come back to blog!!! But i wonder wat am i gonna write from now on???
It has been a long time since i last blog... 6 months!!!
Oh me gosh~

Ignacius 1st Month

2010-02-25T10:54:00.002+08:00

Happy 1Month into tis world!!!

Chinese New Year 2010

2010-02-24T17:22:00.007+08:00

Tis is how I celebrate my Chinese New Year~
Huat ah~

Shopping with Boney~

2010-02-09T18:55:00.002+08:00

Shopping shopping with BONEY~ :P
Spent spent spent like moneys free~
But BONEY only bought 1 thing in e end!!!
Hai~ In the end like i go on shopping spree~ Hehehe~
P.S. WHERE IS MY SHIRT!!!

Grandma's 75th B Day~

2010-02-05T21:51:00.003+08:00

Family photo...

Grand Children~

All e ladies~

Food makes a man go gaga~

2010-02-04T19:31:00.004+08:00

Salmon's e best!!!
Miss my salmon aready~
E raw~ E smell~ E smooth...
Wat is babi compared to tat??? YUCKS!!!
Muacks... Salmon~ Muacks...
When can i eat u again???
Going GaGa over Salmon~

Trip back to ancient egyptian

2010-02-01T19:50:00.003+08:00

I love Ancient Egypt!!!
I wish i was living at tat time~
They are so clever and skillful!!!
So artistic!!!

12/1/10

2010-01-13T11:53:00.001+08:00

12/1/10
5yrs 7mths & Counting...

It's pool time~

2010-01-12T18:38:00.007+08:00

Gal rockers!!!

How it feels to be caught!!!

SIAO!!!

Lodger 1

2010-01-08T11:07:00.002+08:00

Misses Lodger 1~ Such a cute hungry baby!!! Love him!!!

Gals shopping on 01012010

2010-01-05T14:37:00.004+08:00

And tis is how i spent my 1st day~

Countdown to 2010

2010-01-05T11:41:00.005+08:00

So poor thing...

2010

Christmas Party '09

2009-12-30T15:35:00.005+08:00

Had so much fun playing WII!!!
Feel like buying 1 too~
Then can train my arms... Bua hahaha...
Cant wait for our next gathering!!!
COUNTDOWN!!!

D'Kranji Farm Resort~

2009-12-29T11:46:00.005+08:00

Going off~

Ooo sparkers!!!

E farm~

Our reward!!!

Going home aready~

Had a really stay there...
Although there were alot of reviews saying tat tis place is not worth it, but i think it really is!!!

They juz dono how to open their eyes to see e beauty of tis place...

Will come back again to stay 1 day!!! Look out!!!

Town with Monkeys

2009-12-21T10:00:00.003+08:00

Private Foo POP

2009-12-18T12:58:00.003+08:00

My Man~

Private Foo~

All e Man and Lady~

Xing Yu's Back!!!

2009-12-07T10:24:00.002+08:00

Welcome back~

Having Fun Is What We Love Doing...

2009-12-07T09:52:00.003+08:00

Gals Having Fun!!!
Whee~

Cutey Babies!!!

2009-12-04T16:55:00.002+08:00

All e cutey babies!!!

Sun tanning with the Juniors~

2009-11-27T19:01:00.002+08:00

Had a fun day out with e Juniors!!
More outing with Juniors!!!
Hope sis will let all of us get more day off tgt~

Foreva You & Me

2009-11-19T17:58:00.002+08:00

Oppsy~ Kena caught~
Hehehe~
Finally we hav bk our farm resort!!!
Gonna go there and relax and celebrate his POP!!!
Cant wait for his POP!!!

4 Monkey @ Sentosa

2009-11-17T16:16:00.004+08:00

4 crazy monkeys going to sentosa~

Crazy monkeys racing down a hill~

7th time being e stupid bastard~
Hai~ Thuzar is lousy in tai tee~

Had such a great time there!!! Played almost all e games there!!! And all our money were gone juz like tat!!! But it was sure worth it!!!

We wanted to even try the fish pond~ But it was too ex!!! But we're gonna save up our money and go try it 1 day!!!
Really miss e good old days of studying and relax and talking nonsense!!!
Too bad for the other Monkeys who couldnt come..
Dont worry... There's always next time~

Steamy Situation!!!

2009-11-09T20:09:00.002+08:00

Had a sudden thought of eating steamboat... So we had 1!!! Hahaha~
E food there is not bad... So much choices to choose from!!!
Love e bbq prawn... E taste~ Great!!!
But e crab was.... ...
Overall had a great time!!! E owner even gave ur discount!!! For no rhyme or reason!!!
Maybe coz they dont accept nets???

Kah Yi's Baby!

2009-11-09T09:54:00.002+08:00

Such satisfied face!!!

Slurp slurp slurp~

Gonna feed u full full!!!

Went over to Ze win's hse to visit her niece!!! So cute!!! Feel like pinching her cheeks but Ze win would kill me... Hahaha!!! The hair is so much!!! Next time grow up don need to worry no hair le... Hahaha!!!

E 2 studio

2009-11-06T22:11:00.002+08:00

With e Dj...

On e dancefloor~

Aftermath of a sudden need to club~ Went to hear trance music... All shuffles gather there... But i dont think we 3 like tis kind of music... But Cyn promise she'll bring us to RnB next time!!! We are waiting!!!
Actually e music is ok ok... We're able to get high, then the music goes back down low and cool down~ Able to rest in between though... Hahaha!!!
But its e best place for ppl to not wana get grind... Coz all e damn guys are too busy doing their shuffling to grind!! Double WHOOTS!!!
Then again, we gals dont get e attention we need~ BAD!!!

Ai Ying's 21st B Day!!!

2009-11-05T14:33:00.002+08:00

Enjoying e food~

Smile~

Whose b day are we attending???

All e crazy monkeys!!!

Shopping with Fang Fang

2009-10-22T10:27:00.004+08:00

Enjoyed walking, talking, see her new bf~ Hahaha!!!
1 day muz go swimming!!! I bought for him a swimming costume!!!
Wana see how Gavin swim!!! Hahaha!!!

Outing With a Botak

2009-10-22T09:05:00.000+08:00

It still feels so wierd seeing him with not much hair~
Hahaha!!!

Enjoying the food outside~

His handicraft~

It feels so nice to touch his short hair~
At the same time can disturb him~

Missing you like forever~
13 days and counting to ur next release~

Men In Green

2009-10-20T16:49:00.003+08:00

Yummy~ Time to eat~

Trying out e cap i bought for him~~~

When a Boy becomes a Man...

Outing with 2 Monkeys

2009-10-15T08:41:00.003+08:00

Korean BBQ... Yummy!!!

Dessert~

Avocado~

I dont think she likes it...

Lessy Forever!!!

When Boys Become Men

2009-10-13T11:38:00.002+08:00

So happi to go in~

Saded~

Like real!!! Hahaha!!!

E nerdy look~

Fall In And Good Bye~

Last Outing with His Hair~

2009-10-12T12:42:00.004+08:00

Good bye to his hair~

E 3D effect~

We wish we were kids again~

I wana be e small gal, i used once was...

Hari Raya Open hse~

2009-10-10T19:43:00.003+08:00

All e titbits~~~
I wan~~~

Ka Cheng and Me!!!

Thx for being so brave to come!!!
Hehehe!!!

M'sia

2009-10-09T11:44:00.002+08:00

Having fun in M'sia~

Mother and Daughter Archery~

I'm not trying to show off how my shooting is...
But juz to tell ppl tat e bow i'm holding was from ze win...
She actually shoot her bow onto my range n even help me get some points!!!
Hahaha!!!
:p

Butter Fact before the guys go Chalet~

2009-10-04T20:08:00.003+08:00

Lessy in action...

Lessy reporting to the dance floor...

My dance partner~

My lessy came back to me onli on e last few songs...
She was busy grinding with another guy~
Piff~

We r e dancers~

Selamat Hari Raya '09

2009-09-23T18:53:00.002+08:00

My baju kurong of e year~
Quite nice!!!

Me and Sissy~

Our funniest family photo!!!

M'sia Truely Asia

2009-09-23T12:46:00.004+08:00

It's really not bad shopping there!!! It's really cheap!!! Will go back again!!! Once i change my passport photo~ PIFF!!!

09 09 09

2009-09-14T13:14:00.003+08:00

Tis was how we celebrated 09 09 09...
Though it's nothing but the time spent was worth-it~
Love u guys to bits!!!

Shopping with Monkeys...

2009-09-14T12:00:00.002+08:00

A fun and gossip day with e Monkeys... We muz really try n meet up at least once a wk!!!

The proposal

2009-09-04T20:45:00.002+08:00

Great movie~ A new way of falling in love!!! 5 stars~~~

Wonder will ours be as exciting??? Hehehe...

Daddy N Mummy

2009-09-02T10:12:00.003+08:00

Making babies time~

I will love them all~

Airport~

2009-08-31T05:32:00.002+08:00

We hav juz came back to Singapore~ Singapore is still e best place to be~ Whee~

Zoo~

2009-08-17T11:53:00.006+08:00

Zoo is so much fun!!! I wana go back there again!!!

Butter Factory~

2009-08-12T09:28:00.003+08:00

The gals~

Butter Factory is fun!!! Great place!!! With free flow drinks~ N free water!!! Hahaha!!! I think tat is e onli place tat allows to give free water!!! Too bad today didnt hav any merlions though~ HAHAHA!!! I wana go back again!!!

Ion~

2009-08-05T18:33:00.006+08:00

F3 plus 1 lessy~

Lessy!!! Proof tat u hav other gals other then me!!! HMM!!!

Don wana say... E pic tells it all~

Mummy's Chi B Day~

2009-08-05T18:27:00.003+08:00

Guess how old is my mummy le???

She is super happi... I know~

Sakura International~

2009-08-05T17:59:00.003+08:00

My Mr. Dao Wei Wang~

E most scariest food ever!!!
But it taste great!!!
Hahaha...

Loving their deserts~ Yum yum~